Remember to Breathe

2006-10-16T12:35:00.000+08:00

jose paulo has stopped breathing...

I close my eyes
only for a moment
and the moment's gone
all my dreams
pass before my eyes in curiosity
dust in the wind
all they are is dust in the wind

A Year Older

2006-10-09T15:25:00.000+08:00

October 7, Saturday

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday Happy birthday
Happy birthday Jose Paulo!

Everybody and Kai, i've just turned a year older. I was born on the year of the Rat. Still twentysomething though. Tweenager as wat Aye coins. Last Saturday was just like any other weekend. Except for the 2-day brownout (lights went back afternoon the next day), a very unpredictable weather and a flooded inbox. My birthday was exactly a weekend after Mom's. Since i spent most of my previous pay on her birthday, i was broke since then. But it didn't matter. I'm happy enough having my loved ones remember this special day when He gave me life. Shout outs for these people who remembered:

- my over-excited officemates
- my dearest family (Inang, Aning, Aye and Koki)
- my lovable titas (T Juli, T Ayds, T Tots)
- loving Jae and family
- Kendi (October 7 celebrant din)
- Rhea (ka triplet ko along with Candy during college days)
- cousin pa-share-a-load Yani
- Gift-nako Ninot
- Dataword Diana
- sikreto-para-bibo Mira
- Limewire Mel
- Jen jelani
- Rye da dude
- Basang_Sisiw
- most wanted Papay

Wish you were with me Kai. Missin' you.

Remember to breathe.

huhuums: "Til They Take My Heart Away" homemade version
feeling: old

For the World's Greatest Mom

2006-10-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Mom!
September 30, 2006

Mom,

Happy 55th birthday! Last Friday, i can't wait to get home to get you that foot stool as my birthday present to you. I know you've been making "parinig" along with your complains about having foot aches everytime you get home from work. And i just got you one. I can't forget the smile you had when i got home with it last Friday night. Now, you can already rest your weary feet while watching TV everynight. It was supposed to buy you the softer one, but i decided that the basketball-ish design was cooler. Don't worry, i'll buy another one for you on the 15th.

Mom, i know you could be happier with Kai around. She was your Little Princess. I know you miss her so much already the same way we do. But let Koki, Aye, Aning and me fill that emptiness in our own ways. We may not give the same joy Kai used to radiate but we're trying to make you happy by our mere presence. I still can't imagine how you single-handedly supported the whole family when Dad passed away 16 years ago. I was too young then to ask that same question.

THANK YOU MOM. I've been dying to tell you that. Even though you were only present in my 1st grade and high school graduation, i know i was happier seeing your big smile with all the medals and awards i brought home with me. THANK YOU, for still cooking dinner for me even if i endlessly curse at the mere smell of the vegetable dishes. But i love your dishes, nonetheless. THANK YOU for understanding me everytime i cook sunny side ups and fried rice for my dinner. I do feel bad when i eat dinner alone, but i understand that you always go to bed early, as always. THANK YOU MOM. I still have a million thank you's comin but i'm in a little hurry. hehe.

We, your kids, have always been blessed and proud having you as our mom. For the GREATEST MOM IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD, we love you so so so much.

Sweet cakes and milkshakes,
Jose Paulo

Remember to breathe.

Ganja People!

2006-09-25T12:57:00.000+08:00

Artist : Various Artists
Album : Jamaikan Me Groovy
Source : CD
Year : 2003
Genre : Reggae

Encoder : Exact Audio Copy (Secure mode)
Codec : LAME 3.90
Bitrate : VBR ~211K/s 44100Hz Joint Stereo
ID3-Tag : ID3v2.3

Ripped By : Punkster on 8/24/2006

Track Listing
-------------
1. 4:26 Big Mountain / Baby I Love Your Way
2. 3:31 UB40 / Can't Help Falling In Love
3. 3:27 Charmaine Burnett / Make It With You
4. 4:30 Janet Kay / Feel Like Makin' Love
5. 5:35 Bob Marley / Stir It Up
6. 3:12 UB40 / I Got You Babe
7. 3:24 Goldfinger / More Today Than Yesterday
8. 3:22 Aswad Featuring Sweetie Pie / On And On
9. 4:09 Annette B / You'll Never Get To Heaven
10. 3:36 Maxi Priest / Wild World
11. 4:01 Janet Kay / Missing You
12. 3:55 Boy George / Everything I Own
13. 3:49 Janet Kay / Walk On By
14. 3:06 UB40 / Red Red Wine
15. 7:09 Bob Marley / No Woman No Cry
16. 2:56 Soul Train / Three Little Birds
17. 5:26 Jimmy Cliff / I Can See Clearly Now
18. 4:03 Inner Circle / Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da

Total Playing Time: 73:42 (min:sec)
Total Size : 108.8 MB (114,063,394 bytes)

**Comment:
Something to be happy about: a limited edition reggae compilation. Kewl. Ganja! Thanks to bossing punkster of pinoybato. Ganja people!

and remember to breathe.

huhummms: Track No. 7
feeling: bliss

The Day I Tried To Live

2006-09-25T11:41:00.000+08:00

I woke the same as any other day
Except a voice was in my head
It said seize the day, pull the trigger
Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

-Soundgarden

It's Monday. God, i hate Mondays. I so hate Monday mornings. I hate waking up early and trying to convince my muscles to start moving. For more than a year now, i've been waking up Monday to Friday finding myself alone. My mom leaves home at 4 o'clock for work. I'd be lucky enough if my sister comes home the night before, that means her doing all the chores that morning and me extending some precious minutes of sleep and snores. But that rarely happens.

But today was different, i woke up early from the usual. The first alarm of my phone woke me up, no more 5-minute snooze alarms, no extended sleep, no more where-was-i-in-my-dreams. I hurriedly fixed my beddings and headed to the restroom. And the restroom ritual didn't take that long either. I did the usual chores PLUS, i prepared for myself some breakfast. Yeah, breakfast, the word that wasn't in my vocabulary since college days. And a real breaksfast - fried fish, sunny side ups, rice and a glass of juice (don't ask why). Breakfast like this happens only once in ages. I also wore some formal shoes today. I prefered to wear brown slip-on than the usual sneakers.

What's up with me today? I don't know. I just felt different. Was it because of the long week i had? I had a busy week. Worked all weekdays and was deprived of my Saturday 'coz I have to proctor this scholarship exam. And Sunday, it was Jae's birthday. No big celebration but just a typcal Sunday Mass and lunch. Or was it from the argument that erupted later that Sunday? Maybe. I hate arguing. I hate pointing fingers. I always end up being the bad guy, the antagonist, the villain who dies at the end of the movie the hard way or the goon who drops dead at a single punch of the main character, the one who ends up beaten. And arguing with the female race are worse. It's like going to a battle. If you're not equipped with the right ammunitions and stuff, you're dead meat. I once scribble on my notebook way back in college, "If understanding Ladies were subjects to be taken in college, all Men would fail." Ladies 101, i think. If it would be an elective, it would be an all girls class. Tsktsk. Poor guys.

When i got to the office, i turned off the main lights and kept the small downlights on. Pa-gloomy effect. I wasn't feeling good, but sick. I wasn't sleepy at all having only 4 hours of sleep. I slept late thinking about a lot of things. I was hurt, i'm sure of that. The tune of the my officemate's slow acoustic music made me want to cry. But i don't know what to cry for. Was it because somebody just cursed me? Was it because somebody didn't care for me? Or was it because once of these days, one person will have to let go? I don't know. I just feel f*cked up. My ego hurts. My brain cells are frozen. I haven't checked my blog yet, haven't checked my mailbox, haven't logged in to my YM. I just want to write down something, hoping everything will be ok. **sniff sniff**

I'll be on travel tomorrow and Wednesday. Just in time for some soul-searching and sight-seeing. When i get back, i hope to replace this post with something nice. Not some crappy, on-the-spot written post. I'm gonna miss everybody. I'm gonna miss those who cursed me. I'm gonna miss the chatbox. It's still 10am, i guess i'll just have to live this boring Monday.

Remember to breathe.

huhumms: "Collide" by Howie Day
feeling: 50% lonely, 25% numb, 25% teary-eyed, ~~f*cked up~~

The Kid in Kai

2006-09-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

Intro: Haven't posted for the past weeks due to busy schedules, deadlines to beat, crappy web connections, alien invasions and missed breakfasts. Lots of topics have been running in my mind that would be worthy to be posted but the right words to say seem to run out. Then i thought of Kai. And my tired fingers just began tapping keyboard with these words...

Kai was born a Gemini. Geminis are known to be fun loving and intelligent (or so the horoscope says). Kai wore the biggest smile at home. Her smile would reach from ear to ear and we would avoid getting close to her she might bite our head off (nah, just kidding.). She loved chocolates and candies like nothing else in the world. You would actually see the sparkle in her eyes everytime my titas and my mom bring something for her. She would hug the package and jump up and down to show her excitement. Everybody would think she's some zoo animal who just got out of her cage. She also has the most natural laugh at home. She laughs because she thinks what she saw on TV is funny, and not because she has to laugh because everybody does.

And boy, was she intelligent. She learned writing her own name at the age of 4. I pity her for not being able to step up to 2nd grade because of the doctor's advice. She was in 1st grade for 3 months in 2 consecutive years. She would be over excited going to school every June, only to find out that she has to stop by September due to her weekly laboratory visits and monthly hospital admittance. Weeks before June, she'd be ready with her school supplies and my other sister would just drool seeing Kai with her brand new things. She would have a Hello Kitty (her favorite) backpack, Kerokeropi notebooks, Disney pencil case, etc etc. She was spoiled, and she loved it. She also went hi-tech when i got my PC in 2002. She doesn't know how to read that much but she was sharp on mouse manuevers and keyboard shorcuts. I can never forget the time when she begged for me to draw the Powerpuff Girls (yeah, Blossom, Bubbles and Buttercup) on MS Paint. She would be the one write their names after i finished them. She also asked me to draw Dexter, Cow & Chicken and I Am Weasel. I loved that smile in her face when i draw the characters as good as the original. She was also good in MS Word and MS Powerpoint. Whoa. At age 10, with no formal education, she could already create slide presentations. I saw that eagerness in her to learn. She would borrow my phone and put the forwarded messages in my inbox to her slides. Now, only her presentations remain in my PC, but i've provided her a special place in My Documents.

Kai was also the one who made me donate 500cc of blood every 3 months. Being an anemic, she has to undergo blood tranfusion every two months. Luckily, everybody in the family was of blood type "A". Both of my older brothers along with an uncle and a family friend take turns in giving Kai the much needed hemoglobins. I gave her my first drop of blood when i was 17. I have to wait for a few months to get the required weight. And boy, was it painful! Feeling the needle inside your veins, and seeing your own blood pass through the tubes straight to the blood bag. I can only imagine Kai's pain everytime she gets insulin shots every 12 hours. She was strong, and we love her for that. When she passed away, I've always wanted to donate blood to the Red Cross. I only did it once, when my other sister asked me as part of her subject requirement at school.

I missed that feeling of happiness knowing your blood runs in another person, especially someone really close to you. I miss the feeling of being a hero, knowing you just saved someone.

I miss Kai. Very. I miss her giggles everytime my mom tickles her. I miss the fear in her eyes and her screams everytime she sees a matchstick and we would just laugh. I miss her punches everytime i make kulit to her. I miss her giving the poor guy me a part of her food. I miss her seeing in front of the PC tapping the keyboard as if she knows what she's typing. I miss carrying her on my back and complaining "Bug-ata na nmo Kai oi." I miss her artistic skills when she cuts pictures from the newspaper and pastes them in her scrapbook. I miss her writing her name over and over again and asks if her penmanship has improved. I miss her singing to some tunes even the alternative tracks i have at home.

God, i miss her. **weeps**

Outro: Remember to breathe.

huhumms: "Apart" by Urbandub

Love found. Love lost. Love unrequited.

2006-09-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

What listening to Coldplay is all about.

Remember to breathe.

huhummms: "Green Eyes" by Coldplay

My Left Hand, No Kidding

2006-08-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

this is my left hand
not of a girl or of a spoiled brat
i placed it in the scanner at the office
just to see if it's working perfectly
and that's my Timex watch strap
i didn't know i have nice hands
i wonder whose hands fit perfectly with mine
ahehe

remember to breathe.

huhummms: "Butterfly Carnival" by Sandwich

A Scanner Darkly

2006-08-22T12:40:00.000+08:00

Starring: Keanu Reeves, Robert Downey Jr., Woody Harrelson, Winona Ryder
Director: Richard Linklater
2006 Warner Brothers Independent Films

Set in a future world where America has lost the war on drugs, undercover cop Fred (Keanu Reeves) is one of many agents hooked on the popular drug Substance D, which causes its users to develop split personalities. Fred, for instance, is also Bob, a notorious drug dealer. Along with his superior officers, Fred sets up an elaborate scheme to catch Bob and tear down his operation.

Comment: I saw this film over the weekend. I've been a great fan of independent films and of animations (both Japanese and Western) and seeing the name of Keanu Reeves in the DVD box intrigued me. Whoa! (FYI: Jae told me this word is the only expression Keanu Reeves can say with an expression.) What was the film all about? I have no idea. I didnt finish it. It's either i didn't get it or I was just too tired to watch it. But the animation was superb. The creators actually shot live scenes and embedded animation effects to it. Kewl. But if only...if only i finished it. Aye did finish it but the summary he told me didn't make sense at all. The film should be a great treat to those who have read the book. Maybe i'll finish it some other time. Remember to breathe.

Rating: 4.5 out of 5
Trivia: Richard Linklater also directed Before Sunrise (1995) and Before Sunset (2004). Nice.

huhummms: "Beer" by Itchyworms

The Greatest View from Here

2006-08-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

I made this shot of the skies of Bukidnon during one of our office travels sometime in June. I was lucky enough to be carrying my boss' ultra slim Sony Cybershot DSC-T30. We may be all under the same sky, but i've got a better view. Just thought of sharing...

Kai, wish we're staring at the same sky. I miss you.
Remember to breathe.

huhummms: "Wish You Were Here" by Incubus

The Return of the Comeback

2006-08-14T12:21:00.000+08:00

Stupid blog title. Couldn't think of a better title. Who cares, it's my blog (suplado effect).
Ey, ey, can't believe i'm back here. Back in my blog, back with my posts, back with my CBox, back with Kai. God, i missed this place. It's been a month exactly since my last post. Just got a little busy, just a little. Hiatus.

I should have been back a week earlier but there was this feeling of "What will i write when i get back?" or "How will I explain?" or "Has anyone posted a reply or a note?" and all those stuff. There were a lot of things popping in my mind while i was out, like writing about this game i was playing, or this album i just listened to, or how i miss Kai, or how i ruined the files at work... endless.

What happened since July 14? Hmmmm...

1. I attended two (2) workshops. One was for the incoming Intel Philippine Science Fair and i took care of the IT stuff (i wasn't a participant). It was supposed to be a 3-day live-in workshop but I figured that sleeping with the participants would not be a good idea. So, I have to go home to the mountains at the end of the day. But on the last night, I asked Jae if i could sleep over their place. The workshop ended Sunday noon but volunteered to take of the materials and equipment (laptop, LCD projector, digital cams, a PC and a printer) back to the office and our office driver was 2 hours late. Great. Just great. I met up with Jae after and got home at 8pm. Fixed my things and left 3am in the morning of Monday for another workshop. This time, it's about Open Source and Open Office Applications, Linux OS and stuff, and 2 days this time. I went home alone on an aircon bus on the afternoon of the 2nd day. Got home at 8pm. I hugged my mom when i got home. I missed her, i missed her dishes and i missed my PC. And i was back to work the next day. IMAGINE: 2 straight weeks of work. Great. F*cking great. *sarcastic*

2. I bought "Ang Paboritong Libro Ni Hudas" by Bob Ong. Finally. And it was a good read. I would recommend it to everyone who would want to have some good laughs. Evil? Nope. Just funny and very Pinoy. It's like having a taste of dying and meeting the Creator and asking him a lot of questions. A funny line "Wag kang tanong ng tanong, para kang Grade 1." Haha. Next on my basket: "Ang Alamat ng Gubat" by Bob Ong. I wish to write a post about Bob Ong next time, and in pure Tagalog.

3. I played Need for Speed: Most Wanted (and still playing). The latest of the Need for Speed game. Two thumbs up for this one. Jae's younger brother mentioned this game once and i just got curious. Maybe, i was just tired of NFS Underground, maybe. Most Wanted was a lot more exciting. Lots of things to do. Lots of chicks. Lots of speed. Lots of busted moments. Pure adrenaline rush. Whooooooooooooooooo! On to Blacklist Number 8 now.

4. PC ng Bayan disbursements, scholarship matters, clerical works, IT tasks, database queries. Endless work. I don't wanna talk about this.

5. Sick. I'm sick! Colds and cough. Sniff, sniff, ahemmm! ahemmm!

6. The Reconstruction of Lucy. Got her fixed up. Some cleanings here, tighten the screw in there. Lucy? Yeah, Lucy. My 3-year old Pentium 4. Hehe. You'll know her one of these days. I artistically decorated her with a bunch of yellow electical tapes so she'd look like a pedestrian lane. You know, those yellow diagonal stripes. Haha. I even placed a Che Guevarra sticker on her right side. Yeahhhhh! She looks a lot better now. Sometimes i just sit in front of her and stare. Crazy. I love Lucy.

I think that sums up everything. And oh, Jae. We did a lot of things. Nah, next time. Gotta go. Remember to breathe.

huhumms: Apo Hiking Society Tribute Album (on to the 2nd track)

What's My Theme Song?

2006-07-14T12:36:00.000+08:00

Your Theme Song is Beautiful Day by U2

"Sky falls, you feel like It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away"

You see the beauty in life, especially in ordinary everyday moments.And if you're feeling down, even that seems a little beautiful too.

What's" Your Theme Song?

***not bad. i love U2. remember to breathe.

in my mind: what could have been my song if i chose the other options? i don't wana try.
huhumms: "No. 41" by Dave Matthew's Band

Secret Garden

2006-07-13T12:44:00.000+08:00

by Bruce Springsteen

"I'm just about to tell you.. that I love him. I do! I love him, I love him,
and I don't care what you think.. I love him for the man he wants to be
and I love him for the man that he almost is.. I love him, I love him, I love him!"

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

"You gotta be fair to her.. She loves you. If you don't love her,
you got to tell her."

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vice
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

"What if we got married? If I say that would you stay?"
"No no no don't do that... don't say that unless... well you say it if you want to."

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get

"Will you marry me? What do you think?"

To that place where you can't rememberAnd you can't forget

"Laurel... We're getting married!"

She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

"Will you, Jerry Maguire, take this woman as your lovely weded wife?
And do you, Dorothy Boyd, take this man as your lovely weded husband?
I now pronounce you husband and wife."

"I pretend that the proposal part in the car was real..
And it might have just been hypothetical.. I did this,
and at least I can do something about it now."

"So this break is a break up?"
"Cmon Jerry, you know this isn't easy for me."

"Ok...ok... This is where it has to happen, and this... is where it has to
happen. I'm not letting you get rid of me, how about that?
I love you. You..complete me."
"Shut up... just shut up. You had me at hello... you had me at hello..."

***Sh*t. Can't get this track out of my mind. This has been on my list for several months already. Haven't seen the movie yet (!!!), just to be honest but it sure is romantic.

remember to breathe.

Dibidi dibidi

2006-06-22T12:34:00.000+08:00

This would be my first time to actually make a review, wait... not review, story nalang... about a film i saw. I'm not a good critic i know, but i do enjoy movies. Here goes...

Silence of the Lambs
Starring: Jodie Foster, Anthony Hopkins, Scott Glenn
Director: Jonathan Demme
1991, Orion Pictures

Dubbed as one of the best movies in the nineties (READ: 1991), Silence of the Lambs was the first of the Hannibal series. It's funny that i saw Hannibal and the Red Dragon first, but that always happens anyways. The story evolves around Clarice Starling (Foster), an FBI trainee who was assigned to help find a psycopathic killer with the help of another imprisoned killer, the brilliant Dr. Hannibal "Cannibal" Lecter (Hopkins). Halfway throught the movie, i knew Dr. Lecter would escape. He was one smart ass. He uses anagrams as clues. He can tell who you are and where you're from from your accent and physical appearance. He knows your past by just talking to you, and boy, he can even smell you and tell what perfume your wearing. One unforgettable part of the movie, which i know everybody would agree, was his escape. Killed 2 guards, beated one with the baton, and bit the other and removed his face. Gross. This film made it on my list. Ang di motan-aw, talawan!
Rating: 4.5 out of 5

WHO'S GUILTY?

2006-06-20T12:22:00.000+08:00

wife dreaming in the middle of the night suddenly shouts "Quick my husband is back!" the man gets up, jumps out of the window and realizes "Damn, i'm the husband!"

>>a friend sent me this SMS message and has kept my mind boggled since then. was wondering if i could just post it here. so, who's guilty? the woman, if you ask me. wanna debate? remember to breathe.

PS. thanks to Ozzy for the message.

Dear Kai,

2006-06-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday!

Every 14th of June used to be one of most celebrated day of the year. You always had sweetcakes and pasta, blowing candles and endless greetings, surprising presents and picture takings. But your birthday this day would be a lot different, we will celebrate it without you. Ironic isn't it? Life was never fair, i told myself....it never was.

I can still remember a couple of years ago, that fateful night of April 21, you left without saying goodbye. Or was it me? T'was me. I still feel guilty up to this day that i wasn't by your side during your last minute. Thinking about it makes me cry and cry. I was late for several minutes, got there at 12:01 AM. The moment I got there, everybody was already crying. Mom, Kuya Aye, Kuya Aning, Tita Ayds, Tita Tots, Tito Anol, everyone. I just bursted into tears when Kuya Aning touched my shoulders and carefully whispered "Wala na si Kai." It seemed that all the memories of you flashed back at that moment. I cried and cried hoping my tears could bring you back to life. I've never cried like that before. Your Ate Jae was the first one i texted about what happened. She didn't believe me at first, hehe. She called me up but her words seemed to just fade. That fateful dawn, Kai.

Back to reality. Everybody misses you already. Mom missed your hugs and kisses. Ate Koki missed your morning talks and loud giggles in your room. Kuya Aning missed the sparkle in your eyes everytime he brings you your favorite pasalubong. Kuya Aye missed pissing you off til you cry. Me, i just missed your laughter, that laughter that fills the room when you laugh from nonsense things to very funny cartoons on the TV. And i miss that warmth everytime i hold your hand. Sigh.

I wish you're happy to where you are now, Kai. You'd probably met Dad in there. You'd probably be sharing all your stories about our family since he left.

I love you so much, Kai. Happy Birthday again. Remember to breathe.

Missing you,

Jose Paulo

2006-06-14T12:19:00.000+08:00

June 14, 2006

Happy 17th Birthday Kai!
i love you. i miss you. wish you were here.

remember to breathe.

What Baby Are You?

2006-06-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat.
Loves those who love them.
Loves to takes things at the centre.
Inner and physical beauty.
Lies but doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often.
Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless.
Always making friends.
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer.
Opinionated.
Does not care to control emotions.
Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

***got this from an email. What kind of baby am i? well, this tells it all. UNEDITED and UNCENSORED. haha. please tell me if the objectives really fits me. and oh, nevermind the last line (hottest & sexiest? NO NOT THAT! the next one! kukukuku).
remember to breathe people!

First Day High!

2006-05-30T12:26:00.000+08:00

by Kamikazee

Nasasabik sa unang araw ng eskwela
Taas kamay with confidence (Let’s do the first day high)

Umaapaw sa talino (do the brainy high)
Kung mayaman si papa (do the sosi high)
Pag mahilig ka sa sports (do the MVP high)
Kung cool ka at astig (do the rebel high)
Pag solid sa bait (do the nice guy high)
Itaas ang kamay (Let’s do the first day high)

First Day High!

***nice ad. azteeeg! remember to breathe (say high!)

Dear God,

2006-05-23T12:30:00.000+08:00

got this from an email. kids had something to say to God. very innocent yet deep and true. *sigh*

Dear God,
please take care of my little sister Kai. The insulin shots
are before breakfast and before dinner, 20 units each. ty

jp

PS. tell her i love her so much. remember to breathe.

Of Blogs and Me, Part Duex

2006-05-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

Why am i into blogging? Why not online gaming? Why not into chatting and eyeballs? Why not surf to millions of porn sites in the Net? or try hacking my boss' computer? Well, online gaming is way too expensive (fuck LevelUp!). I'm done with chatting and i haven't found any single person in cyberspace who can be really honest on everything about him/her. Porn sites suck. i know a better site with girls girls girls and heavenly bliss but never having to get naked and get f*cked. And my boss' computer? There's nothing to find in there, unless you're craving for some Trojan horses and stubborn, annoying worms.
So why the hell am i blogging? I still don't know. Trend? Not so. Self-expression? Sort of. I blog for myself and for Kai. I don't blog hoping somebody would read it and may leave a comment on one of my posts, or drop a line in my chat box. I don't blog hoping somebody would realize that i know how to write (i admit i don't). I don't blog hoping i'd inspire you in any way and change your ideas on some things. i don't blog just because i have no other thing to put in my Hobbies and Interests. I blog because I WANT TO. I blog because I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. I blog because it's my other way of SELF-EXPRESSION. I blog because I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY and YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I blog for MYSELF and for Kai. And I blog because I WANT TO BREATHE and I DON'T WANT TO FORGET HOW TO.

For love, life and everything else, I BLOG. Remember to breathe.

Of Blogs and Me

2006-05-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

it's been a week since i started this blog. this was my 2nd blog actually. i had one a month ago but i kind of hated the URL i made, remember-2-breathe.blogspot.com. so i decided to make another one. hahaha. it even took me 2 days to figure out a better URL. it's one of those days when i just think of my little sister and tell myself that i miss her so much already. i asked myself, "why not put her name in the blog url?" and i did (btw, i'll talk about my little sister in the next few days if i'm not that busy). but the original blogname had to stick, Remember to Breathe. i like it that way. Got it from Dashboard Confessional's song from So Impossible album. I don't really remember how i began to like that 3-word phrase but it just stuck. and have i told u that thinking of an appropriate blog title is harder than of that of the url? I had a couple of titles in mind when i began blogging, one was Insomnia and Other Lullabyes (ang cute noh? haha). i even asked jae and candy about it. got it from Cynthia Alexander's album. nice song. maybe i'll just place it in the blog description. haynaku.
FAST FORWARD, i had my blog. it took me like 4 damn hours to customize it (talk about interruptions, i was on my office work. haha). Got the Dots Template coz i preferred my pic and my profile on the left side, and simpy because everybody seems to have theirs on the right side. i liked it that way. so i deleted the dots background and replaced it with an simple adidas wallpaper. uploaded my pic (my shoes actually) that i worked on with Printshop 7.0 and MS Photo Editor couple of days before. (The mysterious shoe pic deserves an article, watch out for it. hahaha.) Registered for a Photobucket account. Got a Chatbox (Cbox). Deleted some entries (blogtitle & profile) on the sidebar and replaced it with own. i then made my own blogtitle image on MS Paint using a formal longhand font (forgot the name) and placed it in the main window. It was kind of simple but not boring, disordered but not messy. I like it that way. I hope to add more entries on the profile part, some nice pics and some links in the next few days (or weeks). that's it. gotta go to work. remember to breathe.

My Porn Star Name is...

2006-05-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Hugh Cox

What's" Your Porn Star Name?

remember to breathe.

"Remember to Breathe"

2006-05-11T12:37:00.000+08:00

by Dashboard Confessional
("So Impossible" album, 2001)

She fixes her lips they
Always look perfect never a smudged line
never too much
I try on my blue shirt
she told me she liked it, once
she wonders what I'll wear
she knows just what she'll wear
she always wears blue
so, sneakers or flip flops?
I'm starting to panic
remember she asked you
remember to breathe
and everything will be okay

My Sister Kai Blog

2006-05-09T12:22:00.000+08:00

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I dedicate this blog to my sister, Kai.
Remember to breathe.

pislabenrakenrol.